How do you move on when someone close to you dies? Last April 2, the brother of my dad died. We were all shocked after hearing the bad news that woke us all up at 6 in the morning. Even before this had happened, his family were already warned by his attending doctor last January that their dad might not live long, and that they should be ready anytime soon. Sad to hear but we had to accept the fact that he is already gone. We attended the wake, always supporting the loved ones that he had left. We were there when they need people to make them laugh and forget the sad event even for just a little while. I did my best to make them smile even if deep inside I was hurting too, and feeling sad. But I didn’t want them to feel the heavyness of being left behind. So for the 5 nights of being togetherness, we showed no tear at all. Up until the last day, that we could not bear it anymore.
When I entered the room on his last day, I saw their sorrowful faces with nonstop downpour of tears thru their cheeks. That was the time that I too, could not hold it anymore. Without thinking, I went over to hug one of our cousins and tried to comfort her and her daughter. No words came out but I was glad that she hugged me too. I was glad that she was comforted by my small action. I could not even say anything anymore.
Two days after, and we are all okay now. I can’t help but wonder how my aunt is feeling right now. I keep thinking how would I be coping if I was in her shoes. It must have hurt too much, that I think I won’t be able to bear. I think that I would be dying not only inside, but also I think that my life would lose its direction. I don’t know, but I am afraid that I would be too hurt to even continue my life (God please forgive me for this). So here I am now, praying for her.
“God, please help her cope with this sad event in her life. I know that she was readying herself even early on, but it still won’t be easy on her. Thank you for sending her lots of grandchildren to make her happy and forget about what had happened and make her move on with her life. God, please continue to take care of her and her family, and please, please bless her more because of what she is experiencing right now. Amen.”
Genesis 3:19 – “By the sweat of your face You will eat bread, Till you return to the ground, Because from it you were taken; For you are dust, And to dust you shall return.”
My uncle’s mortal body was cremated. And they have a saying that if a person has helped a lot of people in his life, green stones will be found in his ashes. And I was happy to hear that they found 23 small stones and 2 big ones in my uncle’s ashes.
I hope that I can have like those too in mine, because I know that in this life, nobody will be able to escape and in the end, we will all be coming back to dust. And I hope that I can make my life worth looking back for. I also hope that when my time comes, lots of people will be there to see me and be able to smile back at me because I have once made their life colorful and have made them feel loved. 😊
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