Whew! It’s almost a month ago since my last post here. Too bad I wasn’t able to have the time to write. đ Since I was busy with wedding preps and so was busy working in the office, I was too tired to write even when I arrive home. The past few days, we couldn’t help but to render overtime due to heavy workload. As much as I want to create ideas and write, when I reach home, all I could do was eat dinner, take my hot bath and lie on the bed to rest.
I can’t remember when was the last time that I had my energy built up. All I could remember is that since the start of this year, we have been worked up to meet deadlines that seemed too close. And my wedding is drawing near too! It seems as though time is running up for me. I don’t know what to do. I feel so stressed that I think that I look too haggard and I have no choice but to rush everything to complete them before the year ends. What should I do? I am feeling crazy right now. I am afraid that I will be a part of guinness book of record for being the most stressed-and-haggard-looking bride there is. Oh no!
I can’t help but wonder: How do other brides to be like me be able to complete all the needed documents and requirements for their big day, and still look as stunning as ever? How can I achieve that look and feel? How come I am excited as to how the day will go on the 17th of December but at the same time, I am afraid that I will be cursed and be worrisome of what will not work out on that very special day? And not to mention, I also am worrying on how my life will become after changing my civil status from ‘single’ to ‘married-and-committed-to-only-one-all-my-life’. Come to think of it, among the days of my 29 years, this has become one of the most worrying part of the years that had past. I still can’t believe that I have to go through all these things and be so paranoid to the point that I could not sleep a wink. Goodness..
What should I do? I keep praying to God to help me. But how come I still feel burdened? I realized then, that I am lacking in faith. Praying and seeking God’s help will not be helpful if you do not believe in Him. I believe in Him, but what worries me the most is because I do not get the answer that I want immediately.
Romans 12:12 – “Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”
So there I have it. Thanks to the word of God, for He has an answer to every worry that we have. He wants us to understand that patiently waiting for His perfect timing, does not only free us from this stubborn worrisome feeling, but also, He wants to teach us to wait patiently because only He knows when the best time for our wants and needs to arrive. I don’t know if drinking coffee makes me more nervous of my upcoming day, but what I know is that, no matter how my heart palpitates and works overtime, God will always give us the best and always better than what our hearts long for.
And so I believe that on the day that I will pledge to God and church, I know that it is what God has planned for me and my future. I know that being a child of God, I and my partner are not perfect, and I don’t expect a perfect marriage. But I also know that God will always be there to help and guide us along the way. I pray that God will help streghten our relationship with our partners (and with others too) and help make this world a better place to live in. đ